I’m so happy for you, that you are coming to terms with it, and healing! 😍
I had completely repressed the violent rapes of 25/30 years ago.
I was riding in a van with other women veterans back from our medical appointments. I don’t know how we got on to the subject, but one woman related to me the story of her rape,(singular), and being on disability for PTSD.
I didn’t have any vivid memories, right away, but I began to weep. The memories were right there, on the edge of coming back, threatening my grip on myself.
I held it together until I got home, alone…
The dam burst. The vivid memories, reliving each one, overwhelmed me. I melted into a shapeless blob of tears and snot.
I wasn’t able to talk to my therapist about it, without becoming a quivering blob, for weeks.
Well, there’s a lot more, but I just wanted you to know that I get it.
Peace Love Kindness Respect the more you give the more you get 😍 (start with yourself 😉).