I sympathize, Astra.
Personally, I’ve gotten to the point that I honestly don’t care what others think about my Gender or Sexuality. It has, of course, taken decades…
I suppose that it helps that I’ve been “passing” for twenty-five years.
I’ve “come out” to local groups that I belong to, in the interest of #visibility.
The VA was still using my old name, so I just went in and had a new picture taken for my ID…
People that have known me for a while were shocked, some took quite a bit of convincing. Everyone still refers to me as “Louise”, she/her.
Hang in there, hun. It gets better…you are more than welcome to use my breathing mantra; Peace Love Kindness Respect the more you give the more you get 😍 start with yourself 😉 because you deserve it ❤️🙏🏼