I drank and drugged for 45 years. I "dipped my toes" in AA, occasionally, for 43 years. Finally, no longer *young* , tall, thin and white, and not hard to look at,(getting harder to look at by then), I decided to stop fighting everyone and everything,(including myself), I "gave up", stopped fighting, and began *doing* the things that were suggested that I do.

I’ve been sober and clean since September 21st, 2018. I no longer have money, I’m "totally and permanently disabled" according to the social security administration, living in a sec8 apartment, (instead of a 4500 sq, ft. house on the beach), and I am the happiest that I’ve ever been in my entire adult life.

It’s possible to recover. It’s possible for anyone to recover. I only had to fully accept that *my way* never worked, except for brief periods of time. I had to be humble enough to accept the fact that I needed help, I had to accept help and do what was suggested.

I haven’t become an AA robot, thumping a big-book, trying to save every drunk that I see. I haven’t become a holier-than-thou Christian, thumping a bible. I am still *me*, just *more* "me", happy, grateful and *free!*
There are a lot of *crazy*, interesting, stories in my 61 years of experience, but that is, by far, the very most important one...
Peace Love Kindness Respect the more you give the more you get 😍 start with yourself 😉 because you deserve it ❤️🙏🏼 (you really do). I promise.
PS: I’m a transgender woman. Transitioning in 1993 did not cure my alcoholism. Getting sober did not cure me of being transgender. I found that I had to address *both* of my "major malfunctions" at the same time.
Life is far from perfect for me now, but I can deal with problems soberly, I can ask for and receive help. I can make progress toward being better, one day at a time, every single day.

I finally gave up the fight, truly committed to getting and staying sober and clean, one month and two days before my 60th birthday.

It’s never too late.
It’s never too late.... Today, this very moment, can be the start of something wonderful, a new and better life. ❤️🙏🏼

(psssst, come ‘ere, guess what? It’s never too late 😉❤️🙏🏼)