I did read the whole thing. I see that you are very frightened of a very tiny number of remote possibilities.
I suggest that you talk to your therapist about your severe insecurity.
You are probably hobbled by Complex Childhood PTSD.
You're in good company. Many people suffer from cptsd. I do, and I take advantage of all the resources available for treatment.
I'm not angry with you, but if you see everything and everyone as a threat, you probably assumed that I was.
I'm not, I just tell it like I see it.
Peace Love Kindness Respect the more you give the more you get 😍 start with yourself 😉 because you deserve it ❤️🙏🏼 (you really do. I promise.)
--weezi--💜🌈🙏🏼🌻🥳🙏🏼