Exactly! I “chose” to be a “man”, due to the existential TERROR of anyone learning my “horrible” secret.

I lived most of my life with a constant undercurrent of stark-raving terror. I was never able to hurt other people, not even in sports.

I, too, was born in the 50s, 1958.

I only heard my mother say anything about homosexuality, et al… one time. The look and tone of what she said, set my course…

Thank you for sharing your pain. Hopefully, one day, more people will begin to just calm down! 😍😘😇